Harder Choices

So I've been able to manage to keep it pretty together and upbeat so far.  And then I had my appointment today.  I am choosing not to go into the specifics of my appointment today, some of you are well aware of where that was.  But the results were not what I wanted to hear, even though I tried to prepare myself for the realities of it beforehand.  This has changed the outlook of somethings dramatically and is now facing me to make much tougher choices then whether or not to cut my breasts off, which was actually a much easier decision to make.