Everything Happens For A Reason

Everything Happens For A Reason.....I wasn't always sure I believed this saying, especially when something bad like getting cancer happens.  It's hard to see how something positive could be happening because of something so horrible.  But this week I have started to see just how true that statement is.  The last piece of the puzzle has fallen into place, and now I have EVERYTHING I need to fight like hell against this horrible disease.  After receiving my diagnosis I realized how easy it is to take people or things for granted, and now I've been given a second chance at making my dreams come true in the way I want them to.

I am slowly getting things together to be prepared for surgery.  I have been assigned a Breast Health nurse who will be with me every step of the way.  I've been calling her a lot lately with questions about what to expect, how to make the last few decisions about treatment, and just what I need to have at home to prepare myself for recovery.  Brian and I found a recliner yesterday that is electric, so I won't need any more than a finger push to recline or bring the chair back to sitting.  I was worried with a recliner you need upper body strength to get yourself in and out of it.  We go on Tuesday to pick it up.  I'm making a list of groceries that I want to stock up on before going into the hospital.  Those of you that know me best know I'm very organized and very much a planner.  As long as I can keep up those habits I will be able to get myself to surgery with out much trouble.  The minute I stop having things to do I'm worried I'll become a blubbering mess!  Thankfully work is allowing me to come in at the beginning of the week even though we're on Spring Break so I can finish up those last few things before being off, and help with a major project in the building.  Having somewhere to go for the 3 days before surgery instead of sitting around the house makes me feel a lot better!

Please pray that surgery goes well, my biggest fear is that any of the medications during surgery and after will make me sick to my stomach.  I know the surgery is going to be a painful recovery but I know that I can get through it.  It will get easier with time.